Wednesday, November 4, 2009

A funny thing happened on the way to this blog

This is not my first blog, in fact its not even my second, but more about that later. This is actually my fourth blog.

The first blog was called When I Grow Up, it started life as a weight loss journal/experiment with this whole blogging stuff blog, and it was pretty anonymous. At first I had no photos (mostly because I didn't know how to put them in lol), no real names, no identifying data, but, over time it became less anonymous.

I had a lovely little following of other like minded bloggers, nothing huge, but a few regular commenters who always said just the right thing. I became more and more comfortable on my home on the web, and began sharing more personal information. As anyone of you out there who have attempted to lose more than 10kgs could attest to there are times when things are going well, and times when things are not. There are also little things that come up on a weight loss journey that are fairly personal in nature, and I was sharing these kinds of things with my blogging friends.

Then one day I was talking to someone in my life outside the computer and he referred to one of my more personal posts on my blog, saying something along the lines of "when I was reading your blog the other day I had to laugh when you said..." well I wont go into what it was that I said now, but suffice to say it was not something that I would ever EVER ever talk about with him in real life!

The result of this was that I stifled my blogging, in fact I probably went too far. I was just not willing to risk blogging anything that HE would read and comment on, either to me, or to other people we knew.

So eventually I had to move. I was just so uncomfortable knowing that he might be reading. Moving was a pain, I didn't want to leave a big announcement on the old blog, because he would see it (at least if he was still reading he would), so I had to leave comments all over the web to try and contact my other blogging friends.

Then he was speaking to me and asked where my blog had gone... I lied and told him I wasn't blogging anymore.

After that it took me ages to feel comfortable on the web again. My new home just didn't feel right, so I moved again, and again... and finally here I am. I lost a few of my followers to Facebook (the blog killer) and a few more I am sure through irritation at my random blogging attempts and change of addresses.

This blog started out as my scrapping gallery type thing but I've been living here permanently for most of this year now and it feels like home to me again. I will forever be careful about over sharing on my blog again, if I cant say everything I write here, to the people I know in real life, I don't write it here either. You never know who is reading...

9 comments:

Sally said...

Popping over from Shimmelle's class. Love the look of your blog. I'm hoping to change my look as soon as I can figure out how.

helena said...

what a great cautionary tale and you have a great narrative style - like the look of your new home

helena said...

what a great cautionary tale and you have a great narrative style - like the look of your new home

Zanna said...

I think I'm one of the originals and I'm glad you're still around and even if sometimes it's only occasionally it's still nice to hear how you're going. Zxx

sharyncarlson said...

Stopping by from Shimelle's class. I love your writing style. Thanks for sharing your story, it's a great example of what Shimelle was telling us this week. I hope you enjoy your new "home" at this wesbite "address"! Sharyn (sharyncarlson.typepad.com)

Ryzmomplus2 said...

from shimelle's class - great story and lesson!

Unknown said...

Thanks for sharing this... again it hits home on being careful of what you share. Good luck with finding your middle-ground! ~Kai

Becky said...

Dropping in from Shimelle's class - a cautionary tale! Like your new home though - it is really pretty.

Anonymous said...

Love your style of writing.