We are going out to dinner tonight, but right now I am home alone. The kids and DH have gone to pick up Grandpa from the airport, then they will come back for me and we'll go to the restaurant. It was DH's birthday on Thursday, so we decided it would be fun for us all to go out together. We don't take the kids to restaurants that often with us. (and you should see the girls with their eyeshadow and their lipstick on lol they are 5 and 8 years old!).
Anyway the reason I am posting is because as soon as I shut the door on them, and came inside I had this mad urge to eat. I am not hungry, and I know that there will be good food tonight, so I want to have enough space to enjoy it. I am not feeling sad, or stressed or anything else like that. The only thing is this, I am at home alone, and I feel like I should head straight to the pantry! Not good.
I always do this. As soon as everyone is gone, I will stand in the pantry and scoff down as much food as I can, sometimes it is "naughty" stuff, and I know there is no such thing as naughty food, but for the purposes of reference, everyone will know what I mean by naughty food, but sometimes it is just cereal or yogurt or fruit. The thing that makes it stupid is that as soon as I am alone I think I should eat. Why is this so.
I always thought I enjoyed my own company, to be honest I still think I do, but maybe I am wrong. Maybe by chowing down as soon as I am left with myself it helps me avoid myself. There's some thinking to do there.
Anyway I have caught myself today, I have spoken rationally to myself about whether I really need to eat, and instead of being in the pantry, I am here telling you guys about my weird eating habits. I still need to dry my hair, and wrangle it with the straightener, and paint my toenails, so I'll go now, but thanks for saving me from myself ;-) having you guys to tell these things to helps you know.
Have a good weekend xxx